10-10-10

It could very well be a magical day today! Who knows? And there will only be two more chances in the next two years that it will match. The world will have to wait about 100 years for this to happen again. Oh, the mysterious possibilities!

This week is the final week of my first 8-week term of my third year. Time has flown by, and I'm very grateful that it has. Plenty of stressful and not so nice situations have come and gone. Some still linger, unfortunately. For nearly three weeks, I have been feeling sick and experiencing abdominal pain. My mom has taken me for tests (doctor visits, blood tests, x-rays, ultrasound, and HIDA scan) over the past few weeks. As of right now, there is no conclusive diagnosis of what is wrong. It really frustrates me, especially since I'm missing so many classes to take tests that don't help us come any closer to the problem. At least we're ruling out possibilities. It got to a point where I was getting used to the constant pain, and I didn't let it bother me too much. Well, this past Thursday, I took a HIDA scan, and since then, the pain and discomfort re-magnified itself. This Wednesday, I'll be seeing a GI doctor. Let's see what he comes up with. I have a very small window in which this can be taken care of. My Fall Break is the week of October 18th. That's the very best time for tests, surgeries, or whatever to be done. If nothing happens, I'll have to deal with this for the rest of semester. I can't afford to keep missing classes and thus having my grades slip because of health problems beyond my control.

It really stresses me out. That's a bit ironic because this whole health problem could have been caused by stress, anxiety, and pushing myself too hard. Unfortunately, negative stress is a very bad habit of mine. And if I don't learn more efficient ways of managing it, my health could just get worse. Life isn't going to ease up on me. I'm just going to have to ease up on life and try to take time out of my life to relax and immerse myself in tasks that I create and love. If it has to be at the expense of homework (like my French composition that I should have submitted on Thursday), then so be it. I don't think I will look back on this very moment, and sigh to myself, "Oh, I wish I had submitted that composition on time. My life would have been so much better if I had." If I even remember the exact date it was due, that'd be amazing and a little sad if I worked myself up over turning in something late.

My best friend and love of my life will be here in less than a week to visit during break! I am so excited! Alas, we both haven't been feeling well, and his car's breaks need repairs badly, but we are going to make this happen! He lives about 180 miles away, and we aren't able to be together in person very often, especially with his life up there and my life as a student here. We get together as often as we can during my time off school. Otherwise, we have to rely on phone, computers, and (once in a rare blue moon) letters to keep up communication. On the 21st, we will have been together for 19 months! It's amazing how long we have been together, and we see many more months (years, even) in the future. He is the most wonderful man I could ever ask for, and I thank God every day that He brought our souls together.

I should probably make myself productive on my homework now. My mom will be meeting me soon, and we'll be heading out to see a piano recital performed by one of my amazing faculty members at the university.

Wish me luck with everything!
Love and blessings be with you!
:)


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